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６月１７日離開香港．．．十萬個捨不得！ＢＢ仔．．．波波姨每一日都好掛住你 ：）．．．．．．回來兩個星期多．．．經常都懷疑自己係咪太早返來呢？？？？不過又，好想快Ｄ開波做ＴＨＥＳＩＳ．．．．１７個禮拜的ＳUMMER, 玩足７個ＷＥＥＫ的香港．．．．ＡＺＡＩ都係時候返來好好準備．．．．．．因為實在太想快Ｄ畢業，返ＨＫ玩ＢＢ仔！！！近日發生的一切，又令ＡＺＡＩ不期然地想．．．．．係咪咩都有主宰呢？？？？如果一切都係ＴＩＭＭＩＮＧ，又真係早有安排．．．．ＡＺＡＩ只能說：我係幸運兒．．．．．又，呢兩日，ＡＺＡＩ不斷打敗自己：即將面臨的高山，會係一個咩既狀況呢？？？我何德何能呢？？？？從聽到消息的一刻，驚恐之餘，內心實在是：好多好多好多好多的掙扎．．．．．另一方面又，十萬個感恩．．．．．我想．．．如果當初真係改了機票，回來沒有ＥＭＡＩＬ教授詳談．．． ．就沒有呢一個機會．．．．我想．．．.如果ＡＺＡＩ真係帶點強迫症的．．．．這個高峰．．．．高得有點懷疑：我做到嗎？？？？？真係逼自己嗎？？？？連日來，心情又再 UP & DOWN ．．．．．．向前行．．．唯一百分百肯定的係，誰與我同行．．．．．．．老友, 加油呀！！！

這兩天半的ＢUFFALO, 嘩！真係不得了啦！！！ＶＩＶＩ你要多Ｄ上網，話說，第二日，ＡＺＡＩ真係走去學校揾師兄，企圖魔鬼他，叫他唔好太勤力，暑假呀！點知，７個禮拜無見，師兄成個人都變晒！３６０度呀！之前的師兄，都好ＰＯＳＩＴＩＶＥ ，好勤力之外，又滿有理想﹠信念，經常鼓勵ＡＺＡＩ將來我地做ＦＩＬＭ ＭＡＫＥＲ 或者ＡＲＴＩＳＴ，叫ＡＺＡＩ要有ＨＥＡＲＴ去做。ＡＺＡＩ又信晒，好努力向前跑！！！點知, 昨日見到師兄，師兄灰到極點．．．師兄話快Ｄ讀完,返日本．．．連本來約好一起上英文班，他都話唔需要啦！師兄一路講，個天一路變色，最後，真係大行雷大閃電呀！！！事緣，ＡＺＡＩ返香港之後，師兄好努力做他的紀錄片，他呢套片，拍左８０盒ＶＩＤＥＯ，用左一年時間，不眠不休地，睇帶剪片，睇帶剪片．．． 師兄話，最後一日交功課，４０分鐘的ＦＩＮＡＬ，教授看左１０分鐘就ＳＴＯＰ左，講左一句：you did a good job ，之後無再看，亦無其他ＣＯＭＭＥＮＴＳ。師兄整個ＦＩＬＭ 夢想被徹底毀滅．．．灰到爆！！！ 於是，ＡＺＡＩ拉住他，叫他唔好再剪片，ＡＺＡＩ下廚煮左一餐他食。。。。真係有Ｄ大檸樂ＦＥＥＬ，下一個學年，ＡＺＡＩ點撐埋師兄呀？！！！又．．． 另一盒１８支玫瑰花又送到門口，嘩！ＳUPRISE 屎人！！！又又．．．今日終於同校巴男食ＬUNCH, 之後我地兩個人用左一個下午，不停看 ＭＪ的死訊﹠ ＭUSIC VIDEO, 好一個約會呀！！！校巴男今年２５，ＡＺＡＩ你你你你想點呀？？？ 距離ＳUMMER 的結束，仲有９個禮拜，ＡＺＡＩ的ＰＬＡＮ係開始準備補拍伊拉克的紀錄片，因為伊女的媽媽８月中要來ＮＹＣ呀！又，已經ＳＥＮＤ晒ＥＭＡＩＬ比不同的教授，開始準備畢業論文，希望一切順利啦！！！ ＡＺＡＩ，加油！！！

終於，返左來 ＢUFFALO. 勁似發左一場夢．．．坐車返回學校時，真係好懷疑自己有無返過香港？點解人大左，時間會過得咁快快快快？！！ 不過，返到來 ＢUFFALO 又有好多的驚喜 ！！！收到 １８支玫瑰花，哈哈！ＳＷＥＥＴ：）又， 伊拉克的老友記，急不及待要見ＡＺＡＩ，我地一齊去左食野 ﹠去超市入貨，因為個冰箱吉晒 ！ 又又，第一時間 ＴＥＸＴ 師兄，話他知 ＡＺＡＩ返左來啦，師兄話：他係學校做緊野，他話他的惡夢已經開始左。。。。實左甘拜下風，ＳUMMER 都唔放假 ！！！ＡＺＡＩ明天又要做魔鬼，返學校騷擾師兄！哈哈！！！！ ＯＨ！仲有，今日係校巴有帥哥搭詘，約左明天一齊ＬUNCH ：Ｐ 因為以上的一切，令ＡＺＡＩ突然覺得返來 ＢUFFALO 都幾好呀！原來，呢個地方都幾可愛！ＬＯＶＥＬＹ ＊＊＊ 原本以為自己會ＤＯＷＮ到谷底，但原來又，好多野，係你想像唔到！向前行啦！ＡＺＡＩ，你從香港老友身上帶回來的正能量．．．．從契女，秦朗橋，清愉．ＢＢ ＭＡＴＴＨＥＷ 帶回來的ＨＯＰＥ，應該夠ＡＺＡＩ撐多一個學期的, 加油！加油！加油！。 ＬＯＶＥ ＹＯU ALL !!! "If you get through hell, keep going !!! "

在一起看每齣戲　在一起嘆每口氣　再細嘗　同偕到老的況味 每分鐘也抱緊你　沒有一秒共你別離　還攜手看著生與死 ＊坐著臥著都分享　日日夜夜也為彼此設想 　站著望著都分享　就在夢內發掘這真相 ＃除非你是我　才可與我常在　一個人　從鏡內發展恩愛 　除非你是我　才可畫夜同在　戀不來　從厭倦裡面偷取恨愛 在一起與你工作　在一起與你摸索　兩個人　同時佔有的快樂 每分鐘與你揮霍　沒有一秒沒我在旁　還攜手看著天空黑與光 Repeat ＊,＃　＃,＃ 在一起　會有多美 在一起　也會不美 一個人　同偕到老不靠運氣

*** 寧願犧牲也與你以愛捐軀 從歷史中見證這轟烈一對 愛到倒下去 浮沉是非中一對伴侶 謠言裏 人潮裏 尋求我幸福至少無罪 那怕走得再崎嶇 言論之中去見證愛情萬歲 未似對正常情侶 你我縱是殘餘弱旅 頑抗愛下去 ＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊ ...........唔知點解？今日聽呢首歌，找不同一丁點的觸動位．．．我想．．．老友訴說著他﹠她的戀愛故事時，那些萬歲的感動，ＡＺＡＩ竟然陌生得不禁質疑：有發生過嗎？或者倦了，不再相信萬歲了．．．原來，喜歡「學業萬歲」「ＢＢ萬歲」「老友萬歲」的ＡＺＡＩ，會快樂很多 ：）

等足一個學期／３個月／１４個禮拜，ＡＺＡＩ每日都安慰自己，為自己打氣： “ 好快返香港啦！加油！” ．．．．“時空門” ．．．.快啦！快啦！望到家鄉啦！真係話咁快．．．．返香港！玩盡６個星期，又返左來啦！！！感覺係．．．點解時間突然玩野？點解我又坐左係亞美利堅．．．．等待．．．總係好似一萬年．．．龜速慢行．等等等．．．．等到風光明媚，天朗氣清，又突然光速逆行．．．超夢幻．．．好唔真實．．．好懷疑ＡＺＡＩ有無去過ＯＣＥＡＮ ＰＡＲＫ？ ．．．．駛唔駛快到 “謹” 呀？上機，仲見到落機個影．．．．．．玩野咩！！！今個ＳUMMER 一開始，就玩到 “甘” 盡！你話 “典 ” 收科 ？！！！ 玩喪左，ＡＺＡＩ要用幾個ＷＥＥＫ來收拾個心情，各位老友．．．ＡＺＡＩ真心一句：沒有你，那有我 ！！！多謝你地熱情款待！！！多晒！ 朱同學話：“喂，你隔耐Ｄ先好再返來呀！！！ ” 頂唔順啦！！！” Ho ho ho ..... I already miss you ALL !!! * LOVE *

點解？歡樂的時光過得特別快？ 仲有１６日，就要返鄉下．．．簡直係 未上機．．．，先抑鬱呀 ！！！返香港一個幾月，每一日都吃喝玩樂，行街周圍去，陪家姐，同老媽子爭抱ＢＢ仔， 諗起好快就要一個人返回水牛城的宿舍，獨守空房，就勁ＤＯＷＮ．．．典算好呀！！！！呢一年，將會更加難捱．．．錢之外，對自己能否一年成功完成論文畢業，都有一Ｄ懷疑！！！小宇宙要爆到極點．．．需要好大好大好大的能量．．．ＡＺＡＩ加油！！！

契女ＳＷＥＥＴＨＥＡＲＴ話：好緊張呀！因為奸仔就返來啦！ 契女問ＶＩＶＩ：你係咪好開心呢？ＶＩＶＩ：點解呢？契女話：因為奸仔返來啦！哈哈！契女話：緊張到，好似成個地球都緊張咁！！！哈哈哈！！！快啦快啦！周波波，頂住呀！仲有５日，ＡＺＡＩ返屋企啦 ：）

我又要開生日會呀 ！！！今年, 我要提早慶祝，星ＭＡ：你負責整蛋糕 ！！！ 壽星女係ＡＺＡＩ ﹠ ＶＩＶＩ，因為我地 ９年無一齊過生日啦！！！今年，點都要一齊賀賀它，２７歲生日呀 ！你話人生，有幾多個２７呀？！星星ＭＡＭＡ，你整大個ＣＡＫＥ呀！我想食黑森林，即係細個食個款呢 ？！！ 最好，有多支可樂味的孖條啦！正呀 ！

突然．．．我問自己．．．由零開始．．.值得嗎？ 這條路，感覺是．．．越走越孤單．．．好遠呀！ＡＺＡＩ加油！！！

突然，收到ＣＲＡＺＹ ＣＨＯＷ 主角的來電，問候ＡＺＡＩ：讀書讀成點呀？ＡＺＡＩ話：唔好講笑，勁呀我！個個ＰＲＯ。都勁鍾意我Ｄ野，我至叻啦！老豆話：梗係，你老過晒你Ｄ同學啦！．．．．．．ＣＲＡＺＹ ＣＨＯＷ再問： 夠唔夠錢讀書呀？ ＡＺＡＩ老實不客氣：無錢呀！你比Ｄ錢來洗啦！ＣＲＡＺＹ ＣＨＯＷ亦老實不客氣：我都無錢呀！你自己撹得掂既！你咁叻！！！．．．．．．點解我老豆唔係李嘉誠？！！！咩中國人唔係老豆養仔，仔養仔咩，我話晒都係ＡＺＡＩ呀！無道理！

仲有一個月，ＳUMMER 就來啦！ＡＺＡＩ 加油！ ＳUMMER 有好多ＰＬＡＮ，想去ＬＯＮＤＯＮ，想去 ＧＥＲＭＡＮＹ，想留係 ＨＯＮＧ ＫＯＮＧ，又好想去 ＢＯＧＯＴＡ，好掛住亞ＤＯＯＤ呀！ 又想去ＢＡＲＣＥＬＯＮＡ，不過，老媽子話 ：我唔該你！你快Ｄ比心機 讀完書啦！！！ＡＺＡＩ：有無計又去玩，又讀書，又有錢賺呢 ？ ：Ｐ 今期，金多寶有無我份呢 ？

４５日，嘩！我眼眉跳呀！撞鬼羅，梁穎欣 ！！！ ＭＩＳＳ ＹＯU ALL

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從來都唔係哥哥ＦＡＮＳ，不過近幾年，咩都感觸一番，每年４月１日，都會開 ＹＯUTUBE 狂播哥哥的歌，．．．．．６年啦 ！ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1D-wP2audUU&feature=PlayList&p=03FC9FD8D23FB925&index=2&playnext=2&playnext_from=PL

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall, We used to love while others used to play. Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by, Some one else moved in from far away. (chorus) Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small, And you dont ask the time of day. But you and i, our love will never die, But guess well cry come first of may. The apple tree that grew for you and me, I watched the apples falling one by one. And I recall the moment of them all, The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine. (chorus...) When I was small, and christmas trees were tall, Do do do do do do do do do... Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by, Some one else moved in from far away.

應該好開心的，因為第一年的ＲＥＶＩＥＷ 十分成功，成功到ＡＺＡＩ的教授打電話來，狂讚了４０分鐘，他說：從沒看過咁靚的ＶＩＤＥＯ．．．他話：沒有一個學生是所有教授也十萬個喜歡的．．．他們對於ＡＺＡＩ的進步，感到十分驚訝！！！他表示，會盡力幫助ＡＺＡＩ，希望ＡＺＡＩ更加成功 ．．．他不停的讚讚讚．．．ＡＺＡＩ只懂不停回應ＴＨＡＮＫ ＹＯU ！唔知點解，呢兩日完左個ＲＥＶＩＥＷ，只有一種極度失落的感覺，失落到．．．好想大哭．．．．好虛．．．好唔實在．．．失落到．．．同學仔開Ｐ慶祝完成ＲＥＶＩＥＷ， ＡＺＡＩ竟然躱在家裡．．．．有另一種好無形的恐懼感入侵，唔識形容，只係．．．好驚 ！！！ 覺得突然一片空白, 有種預感，ＡＺＡＩ又要向另一個目標進發，ＷＨＩＣＨ ＩＳ ＡＺＡＩ 能力範圍以外的，新的挑戰又來啦，ＡＺＡＩ要加油呀 ！ 路好長好ＡＬＯＮＥ．．．

I cant believe it, its 6 years......

Happy to be in the film project. Just couldn't stop laughing every day......You guys are the best !!! So far, it is the highlight of my semester !!! GO GO GO !!!

Focus is ... nobody out there. No chatting, no Junk food, no Beer, no smoking, no blessing, no connection, nothing at all... Into the focusing world again. LOCK inside the edit room, This is the moment belongs to azaiydood. Miss you as always (dood).

下一次．．．見面的時候．．．ＡＺＡＩ已經係姨姨啦 ！！！ ＡＺＡＩ要加油！好好努力讀埋呢個學期，ＡＺＡＩ要好多好多好多好多個Ａ來迎接．．．周波波的ＢＡＢＹ．．．ＡＺＡＩ要做ＭＡＭＩＭＡ啦 ！！！十萬個ＥＸＣＩＴＩＮＧ！周波波，加油呀！！！＊ＬＯＶＥ＊

我家有個．．．周波波，有時會係家姐．．．有時會係細妹．．．不過，我家．．．只有一個周波波．．．唔係兩個．．．唔知幾時開始？ 家姐叫我：周波波．．．從此之後．．．我又叫家姐：周波波．．．不過，同一時間，又真係只有一個周波波，條數點計？ 唔知．．．．天下無雙呀！ 周波波，只有一個！ ０９我家有喜事，周波波．．．我好掛住你呀 ！！！加油呀 ＊ＬＯＶＥ＊

Looking up the hill tonight When you have closed your eyes I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning Where are you now, angel now Don't you see me crying And I know that you can't do it all But you can't say your not trying I'm on my knees in front of him But he doesn't seem to see me But all his troubles on his mind is looking right through me And I'm letting myself down deciding is falling you And I wished that you could see I have my troubles too Lookin' at you sleeping I'm with a man I know I'm sitting here weeping while the hours pass so slow And I know that in the mornin' I have to let you go And you'll be just a man once I leave to know For these past few days someone I don't recognize This isn't all my fault When will you realize Lookin' at you leavin' I'm looking for a sign

Alone in this house again tonight I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me The way that it was and could have been surrounds me I'll never get over you walkin' away {chorus} I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain From my eyes Tonight I wanna cry {verse 2} Would it help if i turned the sad song on "All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way {chorus} Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain From my eyes Tonight I wanna cry...... {chorus} I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain From my eyes Tonight I wanna cry......

“ 愛是恆久忍耐、又有恩慈．愛是不嫉妒．愛是不自誇．不張狂．不作害羞的事．不求自己的益處．不輕易發怒．不計算人的惡．不喜歡不義．只喜歡真理．凡事包容．凡事相信．凡事盼望．凡事忍耐。愛是永不止息。”．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．只做到其中一項，也不容易，好難．．．